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Hello midnight, my old friend…

Sunday, March 24th, 2013

And hello blog, it’s been awhile.

I know I say this way too much, but I’ve been busy. It’s good. I’ve officially launched Laughing Cat Productions on Facebook (website coming soon) and have started shooting for Callgirl of Cthulhu, which is a short I wrote and am producing/directing. I’m excited for spring and new developments happening in all areas of life… for example, I’ve been paid for creative work twice in the last week, which is something that I could get used to happening daily, and I am definitely getting closer to that point. And I have more auditions coming up too, including ones for several Fringe projects… it would be nice to do two years in a row of Fringe.

In life-news, I’m like 2 1/2 months out from my wedding, too… Thankfully, all the vendors I’ve been working with have been great! Recently, we decided on Bella Cakes for our wedding desserts, and I was lucky enough to win my flowers, courtesy of Elegant Baskets-Floral & Event Decor Studio. I’m also very excited to have my hair and makeup done day-of by Jamie Hudson at Glam Gorgeous.

Oh, and if you want to have a peek at what Greg and I have in our registry (which we just picked out today) it’s through The Bay, Registry #: 400108637939.

Also, I’ve had two thoughts brewing for awhile that I’ve been meaning to write about, especially for those of you who want to know more about being a successful creative person. One is something that I keep constantly re-discovering, that you absolutely have to know a) what you want and b) how valuable your time and skills are, in order to get the kind of work you want and to be paid accordingly for it. For me, I am happy to do charity shows without pay, provided the money goes to a cause I believe in, for example, but I have a very short list of projects I’d do “for free” at this stage in my career.

Secondly, and this goes for pretty much anyone anywhere… it really pisses me off to have one-sided artistic relationships, where people expect to get attention/support/have me attend their shows/plug their work/etc and then they disappear or go silent when I tell them about my work.
I know I’m not the only person to experience this, and for some reason it seems to be an exceptionally prevalent problem in Toronto where a lot of people are self-absorbed and only care about their own projects. (Straight-up, I know I’ve been guilty of tunnel-vision in the past too, and I am working at getting better at it.) Regardless of who you are, if I like what you’re doing I’ll want to support you in whatever you’re doing, but when you consistently never come to any of my shows and still expect me to come to yours… then you’re getting onto thin ice.
Same with sending Facebook pages to like, to be honest. I’ve been really innundated with “like my page” requests lately from people I never talk to and who (despite having been invited) have never come to a show or screening of mine or liked my Facebook pages. And I want to tell you all now – that’s just not cool. It’s not the way to build friendships OR fans, to be honest. I want to support everyone everywhere doing awesome art – but I can’t do one-sided, energy-leeching anything anymore.

In other words, the bottom line here is that you get what you give (and this doesn’t just go for people in creative fields) so give what you want to receieve.

That said, ranting aside, life has been pretty sweet for me as of late. I am super-grateful to everyone who’s been an active support to me (both in my career and personal life) to this point – you guys are seriously the best, and here’s to more to come, coz this ride’s just started. <3

I used to write beautiful words.

Monday, January 21st, 2013

My last year of high school, first year of university and on a little before that… I used to blog compulsively. Daily, sometimes hourly. They still exist in the chasm of the internet if you really know where to look. I wrote love letters to nobody and everyone and specific people all at once, and I think it’s time to start that again.

I’ve been nursing my way through The Artist’s Way, for one. It’s been great at getting me to figure out some of my hangups and to get me to just fucking create stuff rather than angst about it. Still lots of things I want to develop but I’m getting better at just seizing the moment and doing things again. Like painting. Or saying “yes, and…” to synchronicity and connections that come along, rather than find reasons as to why things might fail. It’s amazing, all the shit we let ourselves get bogged down under.

One thing that’s been on my mind a lot as of late is just how important it is to approach everything in life with love and joy, rather than guilt or anger or obligation or any of that. I’ve had auditions I was angry about. I’ve had more than one occasion where I was jealous of some other actor for getting something I didn’t. Truthbomb: we ALL have. Anyone who tells you differently is lying. As a performer (especially when looking for work) there’s already so much you can’t control – like if you look ‘right’ for the part – so you might as well love the everlasting shit out of what it is that you’re doing in a given moment.

Another epiphany I had recently is how ‘small’ I allowed myself to stay for a long time. Growth is a constant, concentrated effort, don’t get me wrong. It’s just that specifically when I first moved to Toronto and the company I kept in that time (and their backstabbing and gossip and the things they filled their time with and the way they treated other people) didn’t make me feel good about myself or what I was doing, or about my relationships to other people. I got caught up in their petty bullshit and in trying to fit in and trying not to rock the boat, rather than going out and living for myself and aiming for higher aspirations and doing my own work just for the sheer joy in it all. You really are the company you keep, which is why it’s now doubly important for me to surround myself with talented, driven, passionate, positive people.

And a part of this epiphany is how many good people I had around me that I never really made an effort to get to know beyond anything superficial, and how being in a state of constant drama and turmoil with the ‘small’ people kept me from finding the simple joys in life, from spending more time in the good people’s company, in performing… fuck, I’ve wasted a lot of time, but I’m setting the intention not to tolerate that sabotaging behaviour anymore, in myself or in others. And to spend time with people who I think are awesome, to let hangouts happen organically rather than feeling like I’m begging for attention or being super-awkward when I really just want to get to know people and develop awesome friendships.

I’ll be honest, it’s only in the last month or so that I started getting excited about auditions and that I’ve noticed a concentrated yen to be positive and content where I wasn’t before. It may take a bit of time to get used to this new way of being. Same way that I’ve seen people around for the last three years but I’ve only really started to talk to them (and LISTEN, rather than just talk at) and get to know them within the last three months.

Going forward, I only want to do the most amazing work with the most amazing people. I’m not saying this to be limiting – rather, just to create a space and create a possibility to be able to spend a lot of time with excellent people rather than the wishy-washy sort who aren’t invested in themselves or others. When it comes to love, listening, time, and teamwork I’ve got unlimited capital to share.

I’ve got some more thoughts about improv, acting, and neurohacking… but that’s for another post.

And all that said… just to clarify…
1) If I offer you my time (“we should go for coffee!” “let’s work together!” whatever) I MEAN IT. I won’t offer or agree to anything I don’t genuinely want to do.
2) If I ask you about something, I’m listening. No judgment, no obligation, no expectation, no holds barred.
3) I reserve the right to add more rules of engagement as I see fit. I’m pretty low-maintenance and straightforward when it comes down to it.

Strange Days

Tuesday, December 18th, 2012

It’s been awhile, my friends.

I’ve found love as a morally ambiguous biotech company crumbled, begun planning my wedding in earnest, got some kickass new headshots done, become a Hooker with a Vengeance in a Streamy-nominated webseries, got LASIK done last weekend, and attended the Landmark Forum, among other recent adventures. I’ve met some awesome new people as of late, and I’m so excited to be creating new possibilities for 2013.

It’s good to be busy.

I’ve been working through The Artist’s Way, which I can’t recommend highly enough. It’s led me on some crazy adventures; I’ve picked up my own film camera and have a few scripts I’m working on and some exciting collaborating coming up. More when I can… first up I have a quirky short I am ridiculously excited to make. Less blogging and thinking, and a lot more creating these days.

Also, happy holidays to y’all, since it is the season. I hope you get to spend time with people you love.

Dear Bartender…

Friday, June 29th, 2012

I am (almost) sorry, upon some reflection.

You see, for me as an actor tonight, I killed it. I nailed it to the fucking wall and I slit its throat and drained it dry of blood. And I unapologetically loved every second of that.

I’m too real for Hollywood. I’ve said that before and I’ll say it again. I refuse to play “pretty” girls and I am happiest when I am madly in love with a project and its people and I am in over my head. I get a little method, and I go to darker places whenever I can and I care too fucking much about everything and everyone, and nothing makes me happier than when it’s all more real than reality and we are making a beautiful mess.

And that’s what happened tonight, when me as a character was indistinguishable from a “real” person. And I made someone so viscerally angry at that ‘betrayal’ that they reduced me to tears in their own indignation, after they told me something highly personal. But you know what? That other person was an actor too, and they should have fucking known better.

Me as a person? I get it. I get that pain, and like I told you in person I don’t betray other people’s secrets. But that other person also crossed a fucking line that I didn’t see coming – and that threw me for a serious loop. Whatever they brought to it – their own pain, their own bitterness at acting defeats, their apparent shame… that is their problem, not mine. Because I did my job, and I did it so well that it was seamless enough to con another con artist. And for that, I’m proud. I did my job well.

At the end of it? My people picked my ass up and we carried on – and that trust is the greatest feeling in the world. That is why I will continue to act: to tell these stories and to move people, and to be a part of more. Give me a challenge and I’m going to push at it twice as hard, no matter what shit people talk. Backing down or quitting is not in my repetoire.

And at the end of it all, I left the character and went and played pinball and ate octopus balls with my fiance, because that is an Emily thing and I’m more than my past experiences and my work and my people. So, bartender, I hope that you find the same thing someday and that you get over “being on stage.” Because I would rather just be, whatever that means in a particular moment.

swish

ETA: I just realized that this blog post made it sound like someone within the project upset me. That’s not the case. It was a complete stranger who was in the public space where we were performing (and this other person, who was actually bartending, also happened to be an actor) who was clearly triggered by my performance. It’s a lot to think about, but at the end of it, I refuse to see any fault in my giving a good performance.

Lucky Bitches

Saturday, June 9th, 2012

lucky bitch

Yeah, that would be me. And now, you too.

See, I’ve been doing a whole lot of business and personal development as of late. I (gasp / shock / horror) have taken on work outside of acting – working as a kickass modern Joanie as an office manager for a kickass company. Why? Because, in part, weddings are fucking expensive and I deserve to have the wedding of my dreams. Which, btw, I now have only 363 days to plan. Oh my god you guys!

Obligatory bridezilla gushing aside… no, really. I’ve discovered some awesome resources for acting/life-in-general coaching, and I think you should check these folks out. In no particular order, they are:
-The Lucky Bitch herself – Denise Duffield-Thomas
-Marie Forleo – quirky and passionate career coaching
-Dallas Travers – the actor’s advocate, she’s sincere and spot-on
-The Savvy Actor – marketing tips designed specifically for actors
-Smart Girls Productions – especially US-focused tips for actors
- Gwyn – The Actor’s Market

There’s a few more but these ones really stuck out.

One concept that’s really stuck with me is the idea of an upper limit problem – that is, things have suddenly been so awesome (like way more than ever before) and all of a sudden some really shitty things have started/been happening. You know, things like getting arrested for telling the truth about surviving an abusive ex and domestic violence, and having a bunch of “friends” decide to turn on me and support the abuser. A taxi driver rear-ending me and trying to blame me for it. Or, like what happened yesterday, this web TV show I was supposed to do falling through at the last second because once my first guest and I had arrived to film, the creep-o decided that he was “cancelling our appointment”. Which, btw, he didn’t even have the courage to say to my face. He’s also trying to get out of paying me for the prep work and the shoot date, which I think is bullshit and I won’t stand for. Apparently he has no idea of my lucky streak with winning court cases.

Yes, it’s all kind of shitty, but I’m quite certain that all this is happening because I have gotten a lot more firm about not accepting assholes into my life. That includes asshole cops, asshole men, asshole “friends”, asshole “business associates”, and so forth.

With the creepo from RemicTV, Frank Corbin, I made the mistake of giving him the benefit of the doubt when he “joked” about hiring my services sexually. The fact that he was looking for edgy shows for his web TV station and I had proposed one regarding sex and sexuality does not excuse his behaviour. Hindsight may be 20/20, but I am making everyone aware of his actions and holding him accountable for his inappropriate and unprofessional behaviour, both toward the way he spoke to me and the deciding to cancel the shoot when I was already there.

All that aside. YES, I am always looking for new opportunities and people to work with, and YES I will always 110% be willing to give to anyone who needs my help, but from here on in I am holding EVERYONE accountable for their actions. You tell me you’re doing something, I expect that it will get done. I expect the same thing of myself. If I do work for you, you are sure as fuck paying me for my time and talents in whatever way we agree upon. I am not an actor because I want to work for free for the rest of my life. You wouldn’t work retail or restaurant or pick up garbage for free, why should it be any different in the arts? I give only as good as I get from here on in.

There’s some exciting biz dev news coming up, but I’ll share that when I can. In the meantime, bring it on, universe. I’m just gonna keep smashing through the challenges you send my way and coming out on top.

Theatre FTW.

Wednesday, June 6th, 2012

Dahlia

Oh hi there. So, in the past three weeks, I’ve had the distinct pleasure of working with Sky Gilbert, Volcano Theatre, and a brand new awesome group of people known The Mission Business, on a fun little project called Zed.TO. So, life has been awesome, long story short.

With Sky, I was working on a show called Kitchen Party Nervous Breakdown Reality TV Show – it was a fantastic opportunity to create with other queer theatre artists. One of the things I loved most is that it made me more aware of the dualities that exist in the performing world for non-straight artists: while I still often get pereceived as heteronormative, in truth I am anything but, and I still often am far more drawn to the ‘quirky’ characters rather than the normal ones. Which, really, explains a lot. (If anything, I have had more unique sexual experiences than most people I know – but more on that in a second.)

The Volcano piece was created through Informing Content, an awesome two-day seminar about site-specific theatre, location/dislocation, Lawrence Welk, zombies, democracy, gypsies, and laying prostrate on the floor. It was intense in ways I didn’t expect (mostly, a lot more cerebral than most of my theatre work as of late) but I am very proud of the outcome. I think my problem was that I had too many ideas, was frustrated that I was unfocused, and was frustrated that I didn’t get to use a lot of my ideas… but I don’t think it could’ve come out better if it had been planned. We basically spent the first day brainstorming, the second morning choreographing, and the afternoon/evening rehearsing and performing. People were overwhelmed, I heard some amazing life histories, and I am now suffering serious glitter withdrawl. It was exactly what I needed.

Zed is my current big project, and is pretty much the best ‘theatre’ piece I have ever worked on. I always feel a bit disloyal to old projects when I fall in love with something new, but it’s seriously – in terms of scope, people, plot – something I am seriously smitten with. We have a NXNE, a Fringe, and a Nuit Blanche event… plus one more after that. I found the audition originally by accident through a friend’s FB post, and in an event of amazing synchronicity this is pretty much everything I could’ve hoped for. I have the best fucking sandbox ever to play in, and all of you had better come out to the Fringe event at least one night to experience the event at least one of the ways you might see it. I’m being a little cryptic here, admittedly… your best bet is to check out ByoLogyc’s VIP site, and tell them a lady named Dahlia Joss that I sent you.

Lastly, I’ve got MORE good news – I am piloting a show called SexYOUality on Remic.TV. Basically, it’s the show with no taboos, and we’ll be talking about everything to do with sex and sexuality with an array of amazing guests. I film my first few episodes tomorrow, so stay tuned for more info on airtimes soon!

Here’s to summer!

Give Me Summer!

Tuesday, May 22nd, 2012

Busy, busy few weeks. I like it. My condo here in Toronto is about 3 blocks from the lake, so that means lake swimming! I’ve already been in the water this year – I was in up to my neck, and a macho/douchebag looking guy came by, stuck his hand in, and visibly jumped back. When I was in high school I started swimming in Lake Erie in April, so I guess you can say that I’m acclimatized to it. Anyway.

windchocombe night
one of my favourite-ever night-shoot photos

Lots of acting and creative projects as of late. Summer is always the industry busy-time. Right now, I’m involved in about five webseries in various stages of production, and have some script and project ideas of my own bubbling away. In terms of projects, I finally shot the last of the last coverage for Windchocombe, and I am so excited to see how the film looks when it’s through post. I just finally saw and got my copy of the full-length version of Park Enforcer – anyone who’s into gore, I challenge you to watch it and not puke! I also shot a rather emotionally-charged cameo role for the new webseries, Season of the Plague, and am waiting for another recent project, My Screaming Neighbours, to debut online. I’ve recently shot for a couple of pilots, and as per usual, there’s other news I can’t disclose yet. Let’s just say I’m one step closer to working on a film that has needed to be made for a long time.

Also! I’m super-excited to be working with a queer performance group: Kitchen Party Nervous Breakdown.I see how easily and how often I am perceived as hetero-normative, and I am SO excited to change and challenge that. Gender and sexuality will be a topic for a more serious and in-depth post, but needless to say that I’m more than meets the eye when it comes to that department. (But I’m not a robot in disguise, either.)

Improv-wise, I have a kickass new ITC team and Pandora’s Toybox have been doing a few SHAMEBOOK! shows recently, and I am pretty proud of both the format and the people I jam with. There’s nothing quite like exposing your soul via teenage diary readings, let me tell you.

I really wish sleep came in pill form, because there’s so much I want to do. I did actually get to relax(!) a bit over the long weekend, which included a trip to the beach and some TV watching sans simultaneously working on my laptop. The other awesome thing has been watching fireworks from my condo window – I can see about half the city and there were a lot of pretty flashy lights in the sky tonight.

One thing I’ve come to realize how much I enjoy as an actor is that no matter what projects I work on for money, there’s a certain thrill that comes from working with your friends. I was watching David Tennant (you know, the Tenth Doctor) talk about how nervous he was to be working on Doctor Who at the start – I guess that feeling never goes away no matter how far you go. In a weird way, it’s refreshing; working with friends and with people you’ve worked with before, you already have a comfortable bond and you know how the other person works, which means you get amazing results. Or more amazing. Or you just have a ton of fun.

Counting film projects has become a bit like counting exes for me – the significant ones end up on your resume, but there’s often a bunch of one-night stands here and there that you’re not sure whether to include on ‘the list.’ That said, I know I’m well over 50 acting projects, all told, and possibly actually somewhere close to 100. What an amazing thought that I’ve achieved that much in just a few short years! July will mark my two-year anniversary of working solely as a professional actor.

For the moment, though, I am going to achieve some sleep… Summer is bad for making me an insomniac. And here, have some Moby:

Working Girls!

Thursday, April 26th, 2012

(Not THAT kind of working girl, mind you. And than you to Krissy Myers for the above photo of me)

I’ve been thinking more and more about acting as a business, and my life in general as a business. See, this has come about in several ways and through several people, which I suspect is the universe’s way of smacking me over the head and saying “time to evolve”. Recently I took on some work outside of just performing and creating – I’m now working for Fresh Collective as their office manager/Girl Friday. Aside from working for a great, POSITIVE company with a great product and being afforded some very lucky opportunities for serious personal development, my boss Laura-Jean runs a great Tumblr blog called Becoming a CEO. As another creative professional, I find that her blogs resonate a lot with me and my journey, especially one recent post about internal vs external. I think a lot about where I want things to go, and don’t always take the steps I need to make that happen.

See, I am great at Getting Stuff Done for other people and as long as I’m engaged and occupied mentally, I’m pretty happy and achieving great flow. It’s when I don’t feel challenged and engaged that I find ways to procrastinate – and especially in my own personal life stuff (or when I’m afraid of a new challenge) – I find that I will self-sabotage or neglect the work. If I’m involved in a project where other people are relying on me but I’m not feeling engaged, I tend to slowly start slacking off, and if it’s something for me/my career but I have fears/doubts… well, those dishes need doing and I should read this book and… it goes on and on.

Another inspirational lady in my life as of late is my dear friend and fellow actor Miroki Tong. Much like me, Miroki has a lot of passions and interests – I know I’ve fallen into the trap many times of doing more than I can take on, like having five parties in a night to go to or having acting work plus housework plus personal stuff plus commitments to other people plus fun social pursuits. In one of the recent development books I’ve read, they talked about how quitting is not always a bad thing – a lot of smart people know how and when to quit and it can actually work to your advantage. Miroki’s recent post about “saying goodbye to a Jacques of Trades” also resonated with me because for awhile I was trying to build several businesses in tandem. I am slowly learning how to quit everything that is bad/dead end for me – such as not doing photography as business, not wasting time and energy on people who are not supportive in my life, not eating foods that are going to cause me to feel miserable… the list goes on and on. I’m making it my mission this year to quit as much as possible when I know things aren’t benefitting me any and they are sucking up my time that could be better spent elsewhere.

Lastly, a talented lady musician I know, Late July, aka Nicole Simone posted recently about her experiences with “marketing” her music, rather than just making music. I’m torn on this – it seems like you need to market the shit out of yourself these days if you’re to get “anywhere” at all, but I hate the thought of making art purely for profit rather than for what value YOU get out of it. A bizzare comment from someone who’s regularly in front of a camera, I suppose, especially with my resolve to only take on paid projects this year… but I always make exceptions for projects that have MERIT. If something moves me and makes me want to move others – rather than just stand there and look pretty – I am 1000x more attached to it than something I need to “sell.” I like truth when it comes down to it, I guess, and I can’t “sell” anything I don’t truthfully believe in and feel.

All that said, things have been picking up well for me with acting work lately. Among other things going on, I’ve been recently booked for two upcoming pilots (one I had to sign a strict NDA for, so no details yet unfortunately), am wrapping up my dice living, and there’s some exciting new projects on the horizon for the next few months. Always moving forward. Also, planning a wedding. We just got our first contributor on our Indiegogo campaign towards stag and doe ticket sales so that’s pretty exciting considering I haven’t booked the venues yet.

Lately, it’s all about quitting and refocusing and shifting things around in my life, but I’m getting there.

Sexytimes!

Wednesday, April 4th, 2012

Oh hi.
So for those of you who are less into horror pop culture, you may not know about Shock Stock. The new, full 50 minute feature-length version of Park Enforcer will be screening there next weekend. Can you handle a cock-kebab? If you haven’t yet, check out the new trailer here. Park Enforcer is gonna blow your mind. And blow a load in your pants.

It’s funny, four or so years ago I was talking with an accomplished older actor who had bought her house on revenue from horror films. At the time, I didn’t understand how that would be possible, but I have come to love working in the horror genre an awful lot. Even though I am jumpy and squeamish in real life, I do have a soft spot for getting covered in blood, dying odd deaths, and taking on unique projects.

Also, speaking of unique projects, I now have just four days of dice living left – while the initial project was only supposed to last a month, I feel like I’ve gotten so much more out of the dice by having the project run for the course of a year. I plan to put it together as a full-length documentary once the project is all done, but am kind of sad that I have so few episodes left to film.

In other news, I am engaged. See what I did there? Snuck that in so subtlely like that. But seriously. Greg and I have been engaged for a few months now, but decided to make it “internet official” as of April 1st. No jokes, though, click on the link – we are pre-selling tickets to our stag and doe party and I’d love to have as many friends as possible join us. Dates/times are still TBD, but it’ll be in the fall or later so there shouldn’t be any scheduling conflicts.

Other than the wedding planning, I’ve got a few exciting projects coming up including a comedic webseries, the filming for Confidence Tricks, and the completion of the Schizophrenic photoshoot project. I really feel like 2012 will be my year, and I am so excited to have so many talented people to work with! More soon, I promise, there are Adventures in Progress.

Well-behaved women seldom make history.

Tuesday, February 28th, 2012

KPR headshot

Thanks to Kevin Patrick Robbins Photography for this fun shot.

2012 has been a fast-paced year for me and it’s barely started. We’re less than three months in and I’ve already had more acting work in these two months than I had last year at this time, so I consider that an improvement both in terms of my own career as well as a good sign for the industry. (Yes, I know, I really need to update my main page on my website!) There’s been a fun indie feature film, a commercial shoot, the start of an ongoing photography project, a film AND theatre project out of Hamilton, an anti-drug PSA, another feature horror film from an up-and-coming studio… plus a few other little gigs, my regular improv shenanigans, some exciting news I can’t share yet, and for the most part a lot of good new people I’ve met. Here’s a few:

*Christopher at Re-Reading is an amazing, friendly, generous, intelligent, and grounded fellow. His store is full of goodies and unexpected finds, and I anticipate many further afternoons there. (Also: I’m currently soliciting short film script ideas that are set in a bookstore, with the idea of filming something there soon.) I can’t say enough good things about Chris or his store. I even happened to meet Rick Mercer by chance while I was there this afternoon!

*My cast family for Confidence Tricks: Us motley crew of folks first sat down together for a meet and greet in a Tim Hortons a couple of months back and have been rocking out ever since. We’re into the last two weeks of a fundraiser to get some money toward the project… we’re 4/5 of the way there and would love if you helped make it happen.

*Judith and Viktor Tinkl own an amazing gallery/century school house converted into a home outside of Uxbridge. I was lucky enough to be involved in a photoshoot that utilized their property. Aside from the refreshing opportunity to escape the city for a day, meeting them was the highlight of my week if not the year to date. Their diverse and unique art that covers walls and lawns and barns is something I could spend a week wandering through and still find new work to appreciate… not to mention that they are some of the most refreshing people I have ever met. When we arrived to shoot we were greeted with a delicious quiche lunch and several purring cats, and we spent a fair bit of time just talking, aside from the photography project work. That’s what I want to do: get old and retire to the country and just be happy. There was a real sense of comfort, love and joy there and I would love to share their treasure with the world. Go and visit them, you won’t be disappointed.

In my own work, I have just a week (seven days) left in my dice living episodes. I started the project February 16, 2011, and am going to wrap it up by March 16, 2012. A year and ahttp://emilyschooley.com/blog/wp-admin/post-new.php month. Several of the last episodes will be Fate By Fans Fridays, but there’s a few free days still and I welcome seeing where the dice take me.

In other other news, recent life events have turned me into even more of an actorvist than I was before. I now have an idea brewing for a feature-length investigative journalist documentary that I’d like to pursue. Through dealing with an exceptionally difficult situation involving my abusive ex, the more I see of the Canadian justice system the more I realize that there are so many flaws and crevices that vulnerable groups fall through – which, instead of helping these people, the justice system often ends up putting these people at more risk when these flaws are ignored or exploited by people who are dishonest. Don’t get me wrong: I applaud the honest, discerning individuals who work at all levels to keep our country safe. But as with all people, power can corrupt, and absolute power can corrupt absolutely. All it takes for evil to succeed is for good people to do nothing.

Then again, all the cool celebrities these days are getting arrested, and I’m not talking things like drunk driving or drug posession. Lucy Lawless just got arrested for protesting oil drilling, for one. I applaud her for standing up so vehemently for her beliefs, and for the protection of resources and animals that can’t speak for themselves.

After finishing theatre school, I never thought I’d end up here – with a desire to produce and compile and interview and expose and change things for the better. But really, what are we as actors, other than a somewhat-fictionalized commentary on the human condition, for better or for worse? I like this new development, as strange and unexpected as it is, and I’m excited to see where I can go with it. I feel like it’s an opportunity to offer more to the world than just my abilities as a performer.

Before I sign off for the night, the one reality I do wish I could correct is the idiotic notion that actors are “unemployed”. Most of the actors I know do work a second and sometimes a third job to ensure they can do what they love. The few that suffer through on only their acting paycheques – like me – can tell you that it’s not easy. Sure, we “make a living” but that living is often rife with “no, I have rehearsal” or “I don’t think I can afford that right now, sorry.” Still, I wouldn’t change it for the world.