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Me and Method Acting

Thursday, March 3rd, 2011

Sometimes I think I’m too honest, that I feel too much and tell people exactly what I think a little too often. I’ve always been a terrible liar, see, and I’ve heard more than a few times that I can be scary/intense/just plain weird. Especially when I can tap into ‘the darkness’ and turn on the tears for a scene, and then be smiling again when I hear cut.

Mostly, I’m smiling for all of your sakes so you don’t think I’m a complete basket case. See, I like the roles that are dark and disturbed because that is what I come from, that is what is hauntingly familiar. For all some of my family loves me and tried to do right by me, my mother’s husband is an abusive fucker and to say I did not have a happy childhood is probably a gross understatement. It takes work for me to be a fucking Pollyanna social butterfly sometimes.

So, long story short, I’ve spent the last week preparing a piece from 4.48 Psychosis for an important audition. For those of you who don’t know, it was Sarah Kane’s last work before she killed herself. It’s about depression and suicide, and it’s hard not to tap into all of those rich, vivid, negative as hell emotions. It’s hard to remember there’s any love there when the urge that comes to the surface is to do extreme violence to yourself or others, and to feel like everyone is out to get you somehow. Either way it’s got to end and it’s not going to be pretty.

So in other words, if I’ve seemed distant and combative and scattered, that’s why. I wish I could just shelve it and move on, but it always takes me a bit to come back out of – there’s too much history there for it to be comfortable or casual. I could use a few extra hugs/drinks/chocolate this week.

There will be more dice next week, and hopefully I will be back to being chipper once I remember the world is not out to end me.

Also, if you’re around the GTA, check out Rock The Wave this Friday. Great event, and I am glad to be donating some photography gift certificates for a substantial discount on my rates.

And now for something completely different!

Saturday, December 4th, 2010

Well, mostly different. In which updates are provided. And eye candy is down below.

I am very pleased to report that Donman lost his case against some of the other girls he was suing, so score one for the good guys! And The Toronto Star editors chose my photo from our article as one of their November favourites.

I am not a huge fan of how tired I look, but it has great composition to be sure. And I am proud to be able to take a stand against those who harm others. Yes, it takes time and effort and can be stressful, but in the end it is much more rewarding to know that you have done your best for what is right and good.

I know a lot of my blog posts have been about things only peripherally related to my acting career as of late, and have read like the ramblings of a manic-depressive complete with grenade launcher monkey on caffeine, but rest assured that I am still going strong, and nothing and nobody is going to stand in my way! For example, I now have more IMDB credits than I did a few months ago, and there are several exciting things coming up in terms of projects for me. Film is a lot of hurry up and wait, so I am trying not to be too impatient in between days on set… One thing that has been going quite well is improv. I am moving on to a third team of fabulous folks from the Impatient Theatre Company, Lincolnshire Poacher, and recently, a group of us had a great time performing at a fundraiser for the Sunburst Award. Thanks to Jim, Candace, Victor, and Dan for joining me!


Photo credit Andrew Gurudata – At Sunburst fundraiser

And now, for the different! One thing I haven’t done in way too long is photography. Hell, I have photos from MAY that I haven’t uploaded yet. But aside from calling myself slacker extraordinaire, the reason I bring this up is because I am selling off the existing prints I have kicking around my apartment. There are multiple copies of a few of them, but most are one of a kind. Once they’re gone, they’re gone… and honestly, they are just sitting in my portfolio at the moment, so I would rather sell them off to people who will appreciate them. And if you are going to buy in bulk or want to purchase in person, let me know! We can work out a deal on shipping costs/etc.

For all of the below, I have posted photos from my DevArt account. Let me know the name or link of the print you want when you do the Paypal thing (or send an email if you’re likely to see me in person), and it’s yours!

5 x 7s – $5 each, including shipping within Canada
I have 5 each of these (and one copy each, available in 8 x 10).

The photos themselves do not have borders.


Name of print or link



8 x 10s – $10 each, including shipping within Canada

One copy each of these.


*Note – print is in colour and features greens.


Name of print or link



11 x 17 – $25, including shipping within Canada

One copy of this.


Name of print or link



8 x 10 of

Thanks for looking!

I would love to promise another fun update soon, but we will see if that happens before Futurecon.
(insert shameless plug here)

Come out to Futurecon!. It will be a great event, and we are fundraising for a great charity – Epilepsy Toronto. Plus, it will be a THREE DAY New Years party… and who else offers three days of fun for the price of one?

And if you have a product or service you think would fit well with the theme – and/or are willing to sponsor a part of the event – we would be very grateful to have you join us. The more money we can raise, the more goes to a worthy cause.

Leonard Kirk, the great comic artist will be there doing sketches. Robert J. Sawyer, his lovely wife Carolyn, Derwin Mak and JM Frey, are four of the talented authors that will be there. We are painting people purple! There will be a demo of some awesome upcoming Xbox games! And a ton more of things to do and unique events!

(end shameless plug)

Really, things are… mostly good. I am working with some great people on some great projects – was on set for some One Week in Windchocombe pickups not too long ago (photos are here for your viewing pleasure) and if anything, I am trying to figure out how to function without sleep because there are so many projects on my plate and items on my to-do list.

Now, off to catch up on accounting! Til next time… love you all!

News, projects, fundraisers, Polaris 24 post-mortem… the usual…

Friday, July 23rd, 2010

Summer seems to be the busiest season for everyone, hands down!

First off, if you take a peek at the website, you’ll notice there’s been a few updates – some new photos are up from The Witching Hour and Stiffs on the Green. There will be some photos from the Constellation Awards going up soon, too! (But have a couple in this post, for now.)
Though it’s still being edited and revised, I’m expecting to have my ebook out by the end of the month. Unfortunately, that’s had to take a back-burner to auditions, photoshoots, and film projects. And sleep, sometimes. Sleep is necessary at times. ;)


Me with Robert J. Sawyer

Not sure if I mentioned this, but I recently signed with a great new agent, JC at Just Canadian Talent. They haven’t quite updated the website yet, but it’s nice to be represented again and to have a second pair of eyes looking for auditions for me. One common misconception it seems a lot of people have is that when you have an agent they find you work – it’s not like that at all! Agents can often help you get more auditions and to be seen by more prominent casting director, but as an actor you should always be working for yourself regardless.

And speaking of work, I have a few exciting new opportunities coming up that I’m pretty stoked for. I’m doing some modeling for Metal Star Fashions – Mila Starr, the designer, is the same brilliant costume designer from Black Eve. I’ve been promised photos soon, so I’ll share them when I have them. And throughout August, I’ll be working with Department 7 Films again, this time on a feature film. I’ll be playing the principal role of Ivette in One Week in Windchocombe, and we are shooting on location in a beautifully derelict old farm. (link) Check this place out, is it not beautifully creepy?

Before you get scared off, I wanted to point you all to some great fundraisers I’ve been helping out with, ran by some awesome people. Please take some time to check these out, and contribute what you can. I think it’s very important to give back to the community and to help out those who need it – as an artist, as an animal lover, as a fellow human being.
First off, my friend (and fabulous Toronto actor) Carlos Diaz donated his birthday to charity and is fundraising for Chile (link), to help them build new homes after the devastating earthquake in Chile.
My best friend Kimi is running a similar idea, to donate money towards helping Bengals in need (link) also in lieu of presents for her birthday. This just makes her that much more awesome!
Another good friend of mine (and fabulous photographer) Tanya is hosting a barbeque fundraiser for North Toronto Cat Rescue (link). Even if you can’t attend, I know she would appreciate any donations you can make!
In other words, I’ve got some great friends doing some great and unselfish things, and I would really appreciate anyone who can helping them along!


Tanya’s beautiful Didi, adopted from NTCR

Lastly, I’ve been asked a whole bunch about Polaris, what happened to the horror makeup workshop I was supposed to do, etc. To blatantly re-use what I sent as post-con commentary: “Aside from a few small snafus, I feel my improv workshop went off very well and was quite pleased to see so many people out and having fun.
I think I had about 20 – 25 participants at peak – some people came and went as there were other panels they had, and not everyone who showed up had tickets, but overall it seemed like everyone was quite enjoying themselves…
Also, I had a great time paneling with Ajay Fry, Violette Malan, Jo Frankel, Cindy Mohareb, and Sheena Callighen. And as mentioned, I’d be happy to offer marketing suggestions for next year.”

The convention itself was pretty fun, and I got to see both a lot of old friends and make some new ones. It’s also a bit of an odd duality, as I was at Polaris to work as a professional actress, even though I am also friends with a fair number of the attendees and spent a lot of time hanging out. Helping out at the Constellations as their trophy girl was a blast, as Gavin Stephens and I spent a lot of time goofing off backstage, and I had a chance to chat and hang out with a lot of great Canadian talent. It didn’t feel like work at all! Also, Kai Owen was gracious enough to buy me a beer on Friday night – and it was pure awesome to see another actor who is very direct and honest. Sometimes I feel like we’re a rare breed – yes, there’s an ‘image’ to maintain a lot of times, but it bothers me when people are insincerely nice or just passive instead of speaking what’s on their mind. I also didn’t get much sleep throughout the weekend, which means everyone who dealt with me is that much more of a saint. ;)


The talented folks at the Constellation Awards!

Yes, my horror makeup workshop did get cancelled due to ‘lack of registration’, which was admittedly disappointing. From what I understand, there were three people registered to do it when they decided to cancel it, and the minimum they have ran workshops with in the past was four (a yoga workshop, last year.) My only real issue was that the workshops weren’t really adequately promoted ahead of time as other aspects of the convention were – even friends of mine who were attending didn’t know I was a workshop guest – and it’s hard for people to express interest in something they don’t even know exists. (If you were one of those registered for the horror makeup workshop and happen to see this, let me know and we’ll see what we can work out – I’m still happy to teach you!)
I see this as a learning experience, ultimately, and I’ve since offered to share my marketing knowledge to make next year more successful… so we’ll see what happens there!

One last PS: The Streets of London is my amazing new improv team, and we do shows at Comedy Bar. Check out the website, and come see us be silly!

Happy Friday!